candy kissed!

whats love?

2010-09-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

why say i love you when you know its just for awhile?

faint

2010-08-01T13:05:00.002+08:00

im so scared that im gona faint anywhere again...

Red

2010-07-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

Bye Monday Blues cause mine was a Hot Red Monday!

Red for Menses
Red for Love
Red for Anger
Red for Rose

♥ peachy

alot like love

2010-07-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

i don't know if i miss you or if i miss how you made me feel

pluck&tuck

2010-07-07T13:28:00.001+08:00

I don’t understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.

tumblr's good these days.

What a week!

2010-07-02T18:37:00.004+08:00

oh well, yesterday was a horrible day at work! i was dissapointed at myself for only getting 4 hours of sleep the night before and coming to work super shagged. Boss rushed me into a new task which i had no idea of, and no guidance at all. Colleagues were just being plain annoying, seriously, i was just trying not to be rude or even put her in deep shit, so i just went on helping her out with it. very very long day.

i just realised that i always breakdown when i do not have enough rest and when the day demands me more than i can afford to do or rather, expected of for that particular day. i hope to manage this better! after my 11 hours of rest last night, i was happy to get back to my chirpy self at work, felt so good!

Thanks faizah for coming over to have lunch with me just to check on me (: haha, please dont go telling my family members i have symptoms of depression! haha!

after spending 150 bucks last week on clothes, make up and movie last sunday, i feel like going on another shopping spree tonight, i found a good reason why and so i am going for it! and yes, i need to write my baby a letter, so prolly hanging out with some Java Chips and Magz will do me some awesome me time! Tomorrow, im gonna catch up with Soulsister! (and more shopping!)

busy busy month! Sasha and Wife are back, Pharmacy Farewell Party, Farah's Wedding and yes dates too? I hope i have enough time (and energy) for all of it!

Catch up soon!

YGMH

2010-06-28T18:41:00.000+08:00

i had the strangest urge to hug you thank you that night

rollerblading

2010-06-27T13:59:00.003+08:00

i had tonnes of fun! and unfortunately pain too.

you and your heart

2010-06-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

eversince Japan trip was confirmed, i was struggling hard with my finances. I wanted to be able to enjoy as well as spending within budget. Japan was awesome, i was satisfied with my spending, i thought it was well spread out. It was a hard battle but i made it!

so more money arrived yesterday $_$ im so excited. after clearing all my finances, i treat myself to my favourite magazines! Rewarding my body with plenty of rest! I love moments alone now. I love it when i stare in the air. I love it when im not thinking.

i wonder whats on your mind.

upset

2010-06-23T22:59:00.001+08:00

i really really hope its hormones ):

the purpose of a brain and a heart

2010-06-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

too many things happening nowadays, im taking a back seat watching it all happen. i believe that everything need not be on impulse and never get emotions in the way. yes, we might be emotional for one moment but dont let it lead to rash decisions. pause, think, why have a brain when we dont use it? every step we take has a reason and they also bare consequences. it's just a matter of time before it all shows up.

i thank everyone for allowing me to watch it all happen. i learn from not only my mistakes/experiences but from people around me.

syafakilla. (May Allah grant you patience and strength to overcome this test)
Amin.

around the world

2010-06-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

i'll be leaving for Japan tomorrow! It will be an exciting journey. No adults, just me and my friend. Before im back to SG, Ayesha will be leaving for a 3 week trip to Europe! What an interesting this year is.

Love.

853

2010-06-02T01:59:00.001+08:00

Dont worry about people from your past. There's a reason why they didnt make it to your future.

love, peachy

2010-05-26T19:03:00.003+08:00

Tv Mode, 3 sec shutter speed, ISO 100, Tripod stand, 22 Aperture.

One of my photography dream came true with this successful night shot.

2010-05-10T21:12:00.001+08:00

yucks. so fat ah.

shaniealmenoarphotography

2010-05-05T21:57:00.002+08:00

im thinking on opening a photography blog.. to post up my fav photography photos.

away.

2010-04-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

overseas weekends, overseas weekends, anything to keep me sane. anything.

shopping and more shopping!

2010-04-22T21:20:00.003+08:00

''When I shop, the world gets better, and the world is better, but then when it's not, and I need to do it again'' - Rebecca Bloomwood, Confessions of a Shopaholic
this makes me feel sane. love.

date night

2010-04-19T20:14:00.002+08:00

i've never had the strongest urge to leave home but tonight i did. tonight, for the first time, i'm gonna watch a movie, alone.

2010-04-19T18:13:00.001+08:00

just don't add more trouble old woman.

ironic

2010-04-16T20:46:00.002+08:00

i had this strongest urge to shop, to immediately grab cleo and fulfill my heart to see clothes, to walk into shopping malls, to walk into my favourite shops. i did it today while waiting for my sister to pick me up. it was 5 minutes, just 5 minutes. for the longest time, it put a smile on my face. i held the materials, let it run through my fingers. it felt home and it made me calm.

the stronger the urge, the stronger the sadness. a word so short, hurts so deep.

a-lone

2010-04-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

I want to bring Ryan out on a trip. Just you and I. and we're gonna have Mega Mcspicy for lunch. Even when it means i don't seem to get you to focus, i will wait for you patiently.

I just need me time so much now. No one can tell, now one can sense the desperation, the outburst. I want to cry. Okay Bye.

resume

2010-04-13T20:51:00.001+08:00

so i was compiling my resume worthy documents, im proud of myself. i've come a long way. it feels good to know it was a good step to sign up for the pharmacy technician course. hi world, im prepared for you. hi independence.

jet plane

2010-04-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

i just cant wait to forgo with my plans. cant wait to smell the air of independence. oh happy first anniversay! cheers, to happier days together!

$$$

2010-04-01T21:31:00.001+08:00

When you treat your loved ones like a business deal. This is the outcome.

facial

2010-03-31T20:24:00.004+08:00

I've always wondered what happens during a facial. Every young woman i know goes to facial often. Since my colleague passed me a 28 bucks worth of facial voucher and even booked a session for me, it was an offer too good to say no.

I walked in without any thoughts of how it facial session's going to be like. It's a wonder why i never asked anyone before. A bit worried for a moment cause i had full make up on (went there after work). Everyone was friendly, they thought i was under-aged to do facial. It's for 21 and above by the way.

Vicky was my beautician for the night. She told me she had years of experience working in beauty salon and from that moment, i knew i was in good hands. She removed my make up with much tender loving care. I felt calm and relaxed. It was funny how she insisted that I had some mascara on. When I told her no, she asked if i did eyelash extensions. Even at the hair salon, i was asked the same thing. Truthfully, i think that my eyelash is nothing compared to my beautiful girlfriends.

Anyway, back to the facial. After removing my make up, she began analyzing the skin. Generally, my skin is good (i was so glad to hear that!), just that i have oily T-zones and dry skin on my cheeks. Nothing new really.

She recommended me a gentle skin peeler to remove the dead skin cells on my face since this is my first facial trip in my life! I was excited knowing that every night after washing my face, i notice that dull skin. The peeler makes the skin glow! Seeing half of the effect on my face, i was convinced that it's a really good treatment. Oh yes, did i mention she was shocked at my dark circles on my eye bag, she couldn't stop saying that i should do something to it.

After removing dead skin cells, it was time for white heads and black heads. Yay! I figured this would be definitely part of the service and boy, i was excited! (I have plenty plenty plenty). It was a manageable pain extraction moment of those tiny lil heads that causes pimples.

It ended with a cooling (icy cold!) face mask and she didn't hesitate to throw in an eye collagen treatment as well. Partly due to the fact that i signed a package. 33 bucks each for next 5 facial sessions with 2 eye collagen treatment. Not only that, neck treatment plus shoulder massage.

Overall, I cant wait for the next session. She advised me to do once every three weeks but i thought once a month would be awesome (:

Love.

do you know the harm?

2010-03-18T21:07:00.004+08:00

from trauma to psycho. im not suprised if it gets any worse.

why?

2010-03-16T19:45:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder why people do it. why?

click!

2010-03-14T22:06:00.001+08:00

love that crispy sound on Ryan. it makes every cent worth it. his first trip was to Universal Studios, what an awesome sight.
My babies, Micheal&Ryan, maybe 2 is better than one (:

late night calls.

2010-03-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

you read. you re-read. you triple read just to understand. then you become obsess with each line. you thought you understand and start to misinterpret. nothing new.

maybe great minds get a different light when they do this. but maybe when it comes to small minds, they just get stuck in history.

a year ago.

2010-02-19T15:39:00.002+08:00

i was reading somenone's blog and it allowed me to evoke some old feelings that i couldnt even pen down but now reading it. somehow comforting to know that the feeling was universal. glad i've moved on from that phase cause boy, you'd know it wasnt easy.

Thank you, I hate you, I'm sorry. Thank you because without your support, I wouldn't be here I wouldn't have stayed when things got hard. You wouldn't have believed that you could find a life.Thank you for the way you know me,for being my best friend for what feels like forever,and for raising the bar so high that I don't know where to begin.Thank you for knowing to let go before things got ugly.On some level, you must've known that forcing me to fly on my own would force you to fly too, to do the things you know you need. And maybe you even share the belief that our paths will join us together again, and for always.

I hate you for not wanting it badly enough,for not believing we could do this together,for not following through.I hate that you didn't have the balls to take a chance,to explore this place that's filled with dreams.I hate that you don't even seem to be doing the things that made you stay.I hate that the way you tell me how you feel almost always hurts,and that most of the time you just don't tell me at all.I hate that you are the only guy I can imagine loving,and you make letting ago seem so easy,like it doesn't hurt at all,like you don't ever cry.

I'm sorry I left the way I did,because of what it said to you:that I would always expect you to follow. I'm sorry I didn't see it like that.I thought paving the way would create an adventure that would change our lives.I'm sorry I didn't wait until you were ready,that I didn't think I could, so the decision didn't feel like yours. I'm sorry that it seemed like your opinion wasn't important,when nothing could be further from the truth. I'm sorry that I doubted our future, and made you doubt it too. I didn't know myself well enough. We both thought we'd have more time, and then I left. I'll always be sorry for that.

we know we've left that chapter for the better. take care H.
love.

f

2010-02-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

i feel like i've lost it all in a blink of the eye. now, im striving to go overseas, for the better.

that drive.

2010-02-07T22:20:00.003+08:00

so my mama wanted me to drive her to sheng siong at about 8 plus. i had to wait for about half an hour while she shopped around. i wasnt complaining cause i was all ready with my book, the mile hi! club. truthfully, it was a long time since i had a good read.

February would be a month of parties and farewells. excitement and sadness. a short getaway in between. oh yeah, my new born niece too.

you know what, i had a whole chunk of things to blog before i switched on this laptop but suddenly i had to much distractions. i cant rmmbr what's the main storyline.

since the radio is playing the tunes that i can play on the guitar. i really miss it. it's sad i cant commit or rather, it isnt really my interest to play that good ol guitar full of dust in my room. the sense of accomplishment i felt was out of this world. i even rmmbrd that i played for sasha you're beautiful via webcam while she was in aussie. haha. my fav was collide. i love how i could play the whole song cause it had a good strumming rythm and cords. damn, i miss it alot.

goodnight, xoxo.

its all in the skin baby

2010-01-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

we were at The Face Shop today and sasha was showing me some night face mask with collagen, it was so fragrant that i knew i had to buy it for my face pretty soon. after a long day out with the gang, normal face routine, st ives apricot facial scrub, i decided to use the toner i got from work. i saw the importance of it immediately! the amount of dirt on the cotton pad is really shocking! i thought a face scrub would do sufficient.

now i feel guilty to not even remove my make up on some really tired nights after work and class. damn. okay now i need a good moisturiser. oh yeah reminds me, i want that eye roller to reduce my panda eyes.

note to self: scrub, toner and mositurise EVERY NIGHT. invest on collagen pills for skin and wrinkles.

104

2010-01-24T10:59:00.008+08:00

okay its obvious i dont update that often anymore cause i only use the laptop during the weekends, majorly to upload photos, monthly to pay my bills using i-banking. today i just saw the letter from CPF. they've asked me to pay back my polytechnic education that was initially paid through my sister's cpf. this means deduction of 104 sgd from my pay. YES ITS FREAKING $104 and this would carry on for 6 years. worst, i miss the deadline for submitting the giro form. hmm, can i delay it abit more. damn, this is shocking. my friends who are in poly/left poly, yes you gotta pay it back man.

this month i will not buy anything for myself. cause i have to keep that savings account numbers to go up or else i would be disappointed in myself. and, i think my plans to get a DSLR soon wouldnt be that soon? sigh.

oh yeah, did i mention night classes starts for me this tuesday? every tuesdays and thursdays for a year. im gonna be damn tired. one more thing, wifey and bff's gona leave SG at the end of feb ):

till then sweethearts.

pretty space

2010-01-10T14:39:00.002+08:00

not bad for a permed short hair

haha its been a long time since i visited my own blog and i realise its quite a pretty space on its own. sucha pitty that i dont have time to update on it much. even with mega exciting weekends, all the more i lack the energy to blog. heh. i bet no one ever visit this place anymore. which is kinda good ya know? finally i breath sumore.

maybe i'll try blogging over using my itouch and hopefully it will be an easy exciting one cause if not, this space would be gone again.

it would be fun down the road to view back on the events and the emotions cause everything is never as it seems

backk!

2009-12-06T14:54:00.003+08:00

finally im back on my laptop, haha! i find that the itouch i recently purchased is my best investment soo faarrr :D :D it's really a burnt in my pocket, a hole in bank, whichever way you want to put it. I wonder how youth nowadays have all these expensive toys really, it's a trend i notice. from DSLR to apple products. lucky kids i suppose. nothing feels better when the cash comes from your pocket.

im loving the fact that i can do FB and MSN on it. the main reasons why im using the laptop eversince i left school, haha! and ofcourse, besides uploading photos. hehe.

mega plans and things to look forward till year end :D

Dirt Biking Holiday w Jade and friends
CGH Year End Party
KL
Snow City
PAYYY DAYYY + BONUSSSSSSSSSS :D
Christmas parties
Costume party w massive gang!

Book your date babies!
Love

excited

2009-11-27T00:01:00.004+08:00

i guess, changes are part of a sagittarius life.
new look for my blog; new look for my bedroom; new look for myself? (if i could get my hands on that leather jacket(; )

and new look happen to be my most recent love shop in ION, did you see the gorgeous and affordable heels they have over there? simply mind blowing for me! best part, they have everything in my size, this huge feet of mine :D

better updates soon. changes keep me motivated!
love.

mental note: get a gift for year end party gift exchange by Monday; Moulin Rouge, Lady Marmalade.

of self indulgence

2009-11-06T22:05:00.002+08:00

this year's year end party theme, movie stars. i wonder what i should dress as. my colleague and i have been chosen to be in charge of performance representing my outpatient pharmacy. haha!

on another note, i almost forget how happy i was then after that weird incident. hmm..
okay yay for weekends, im so excited cause its time for me to put on my glad wedges again! yay! loving every minute in it :D

love!

2009-10-22T19:58:00.001+08:00

i'm always inspired by Mama being a SUPERMOM! her skills that i want to instill in myself,

patience
sewing
cooking
cleaning
creativity
support
care

ma, i hope to grow and be like you :D
XOXO.

two less lonely people

2009-10-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

two less lonely people in the world
And its gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just cant believe youre mine
In my life where everything was wrong
Something finally went right
Now theres two less lonely people
In the world tonight

-air supply

is this for real?

2009-10-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

i think its time for me to get my own cashcard so that i can start paying for my own carpark chargers (;

guess what, third drive out for the day, i still cant believe im finally legal!
hip hip hurray!

like a bridge over troubled waters.

2009-10-14T20:40:00.005+08:00

and then uncle tan asked me to check out his Europe trip photo on fb, specifically pork ribs. haha and then i replied, babi sedap habis. he was sharing with me how tender it was, how much he enjoyed it.

guess what, he forgot im muslim. rofl.
damn, this always happens. im suddenly having chesty coughs, it feels like an asthma attack's gonna come again. pls dont tell me its an anxiety attack =/

2 days baby.

2009-10-13T21:54:00.005+08:00

hoho. i cant believe my test car got into an accident and im forced to take an extra lesson just to be familiarise w the new car. awesome change, from toyota vios to mitsubishi lancer. just hope i can park well.

im nervous.
lol, from uncle tan;
KP@IPK - peachy says she likes me because I'm easy, no drama and very satisfying... muahahaha

KP@IPK says:
*i am a guuy
*trust me
*you are gorgeous
*if anyone says no i will beat the crapout of them
*wahahahahaha
*that is of course theyare smaller than me
*muahahahahahah

♥ peachy in the city says:
*hahahahhahahahahaha!
*oh no, but i like muscular man leh
*then u cannot help anymore ):
*hahahaha!

KP@IPK says:
*alamak
*i will hire bodyguard but then again you will be harassing my bodyguard for their telphone numbers

♥ peachy in the city says:
*hahahahahahahaaahahah!
*lovely combo

KP@IPK says:
*heheheh

quick updates.

2009-10-11T18:09:00.004+08:00

this week quickly became awesome when i had a short webcaming session w jade and su, and then hari raya visitings on saturday! :D

im gonna have a picnic session w my favourite relief teaching class this saturday and then meeting PSBs at night to send the azhar girls off.
now jade and su, i miss you both, movie on sunday?

oh yeah did i mention, my pharmacy technician class starts on the 20th? im excited and nervous.
i talk about this so much. i want this so much. make me feel like pee-ing so much at the thought of it. pray for me! TP on friday!

im loving my new specs, considering to wear spectacles for good. what say you? i'll upload a decent photo when i have one. hehe.

love.

urgh!

2009-10-07T21:25:00.003+08:00

this week is so suckish that im cursing at every opportunity at work. i cant believe i had to do 25 medisave transactions on tuesday and then become main cashier today, for the whole fucking day. and i saw that the patient forecast today was 1,200 in both morning and afternoon. im so exhausted. and damn tomorrow im doing morning duty which means im the packer, the cashier, the typist, all rounder =/

and my colleagues told me, im just having bad luck days back to back. thanks.
its sucking the life out of me.

saturday pls come, pleassseeeee!

=/

2009-10-06T19:51:00.004+08:00

i knew work was not gonna be easy. but i didnt expect it to be this hard.

everyday;
i fear i'd pack the wrong drug.
i fear i'd pack the wrong quantity.
i fear i type the wrong label.
i fear i read the label wrongly.
i fear i key in the incorrect amount during cashiering.
i fear that when i do closing for cashier i would have discrepancies that i cant explain.
i fear i'd do wrong calculation for Medisave.
i fear that at the end of the month my supervisor would come to me and say, you're one of the highest who packed wrongly this month. (yes, they take note and tabulate your every mistake)

i feel very uneasy the whole day throughout work. the crowd is no better. i feel so pressurised that i would sneak into the toilet and cry. i tell myself every morning that i'm gonna be a better worker but i dissapoint myself at the end of the day.
oh Allah, please give me strength.

)':

sit with me through the breeze, wont you?

2009-10-05T21:57:00.004+08:00

i am amazed at how cool, calm and collected i was addressing the issue. for a moment, i felt relieved and believe it was a good move after much contemplation.

Costume Party

2009-10-04T09:48:00.002+08:00

visitings and costume party!
my saturday or rather week wasnt going on that well but all of you just made it one of my best weekends (:
love!

across the ocean

2009-09-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

i am thankful that im left with 40 bucks of international calls after 2 long phone calls last weekend. im touched by the ipod DP. love you sweetheart!

no pictures!

2009-09-28T21:56:00.003+08:00

(see! finally a photo over here! yay!)

i just feel so annoyed that im not able to upload pictures to this blog for quite somtime. Today i just realised my mistake (i feel abit dumb actually) haha! i just realised that they've updated the new blogger and now we have to put a tick for ' I accept the terms of service' hahaha!

okay this is a pointless update.
i've been very busy with driving, work and visitings. TP date is drawing so near that im getting nervous at the thought of it.
work is really annoying the shit out of me, im gonna meet my supervisor tomorrow.

love.

24.09.09

2009-09-25T00:14:00.002+08:00

horrible horrible day.
it starts at work, drags all the way to driving.

1. i kept packing the wrong quantity. my gawd. there goes my bonus this year. sheesh!
2. stupid shift changing w colleagues. i swear they are selfish or just plain dumb. got me so pissed and angry!
3. can you believe it, i cldnt differentiate btwn left and right during driving. hah, my instructor i guess just got really irritated with me. for a moment he shouted, got a shock!
4. i left my wallet in the locker at work, i was not able to pay the instructor.
5. i didnt turn enough that the instructor pulled my steering, he got scratched by my nail. poor him. it was bleeding for awhile )):

im so sorry, i didnt do any of this on purpose!

on a brighter note;

1. lee dee bought me a mooncake!
2. shopping at bugis on wed night was worth it
3. cant wait for the greek party after work on friday with fatimah sayang and all colleagues!
4. cant wait to dress Farah and Rajan up for the CGH Greek Beauty Peagent!
5. my cousin's wife bought me an awesome cardigan and suprised me by sending it over to my house! (cause i said hers was pretty, she decided to get me one too! so so touched!)
6. friday is the last day for the green uniform, bye bye pantyhose hello pink pants! (my life is forever with pink pants/skirt, dont you think so?)
7. i just bought something on ebay on impulse (first timer!), im excited!
8. Itenary for Dec Trip w Friends are out, cant wait!!
9. Jade looks so cute on webcame just now.

okay toodles!
p/s: i want to go shopping, anyone intersted to join?

Eid Mubarak to All

2009-09-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

grey jeans
leather jacket
4 inch wedges
top from uniqlo

should i go shopping and give myself a treat?
love.

2008

2009-09-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

this time of the year in 2008, i was rushing my FYP. having lab sessions from monday to wednesday, after school till 7pm. rushing home to break fast every time. sleeping away and drooling in 168, missing my stop. moments where we have to make up for lab sessions we missed during adv dip

there were nights when i dont sleep thinking about the confrontations im gonna make to my team mates the next morning.
nights when i kept reading about anti oxidants and dont understand at all.
nights when i kept thinking of my 96 well plate not giving accurate results.
nights when i was almost cross eyed with my excel sheets.

all in all, i think i had a fun time with my girls.
now alhamdulillah, all my fav malay girls from adv dip/ fyp team mates/ 168 bus mates are working in the pharmacies across the nation (:
i miss all of you!

time is passing by too fast, i hope i dont miss any important life details.
love.

back at work!

2009-09-11T20:20:00.003+08:00

so today was like my mega entrance at work after a long break.

everyone said i lost weight, which i dont feel i did.
everyone was excited to tell me what happened at work when they got the news on me, the whole pharmacy was in shock!
everyone paused from working for a moment but ended up getting scolded by the supervisor. haha! poor colleagues.

all in all, i got a good welcome and it instantly cheered me up and gave me the energy to work!
love.

its nice to be home

2009-09-10T16:01:00.003+08:00

i just love how growing up leaves a good feeling in my heart after every episode. it was a good move to have it on re-runs, except they should do it at a better time slot. or if it could be 2pm, all the better, i can catch it during my lunch time.

so i've been on mc for 9 days, today is my last ): ive tucked in really well in the sofa. i've come up w a pretty good schedule for myself. this is for fatimah, who at work would wonder, how am i doing at home. haha!

wake up at 12.30, clean myself up.
1pm: MTV made, MTV
2pm: Ellen, Starworld
3pm: Growing Up, Ch 5 / 7th Heaven, Starworld
4pm: CSI Miami, AXN
5pm: Racheal Ray
6pm: Get Busy in the Kitchen, Getting ready for breakfast.

i baked butter and bread pudding this week, it was a hit at home! now mama asked me to bake again for sunday's dinner at my aunt's :D im feeling the baking energy building up in me! like finally its coming back!

alrighty, now i gotta clean up my bedroom and sanitise everything once again now that i've almost recovered. its a hell of a mess now. oh yeah, i wonder when is the new maid coming, almost 2 weeks now. im running out of clean clothes.

how's your raya preperation? its almost to the last holy 10 nights of the year!
till another time!

stupid blogger

2009-09-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

im having troubles w my blogger. i dont seem to get the old format eversince i updated my IE and now using mozilla its no different. i think ive been updating my fb more now. i kinda miss blogging. anyone knows how to fix this shit let me know ya! till then, toodles!

growing up!

2009-09-04T23:52:00.005+08:00

and so i heard you were nervous, seriously, i felt nothing. all i wanted to do was concentrate to be well. not to make a scene and faint in public. people around me said it was awkward shit but then again, i felt nothing. body language tells it all, i could tell you wish you were never there. but too bad, i was doing it for the sake of a good friend, and i was thinking, how long can this shit last isnt it?

so you and your friend made a bet. it was silly. was the friendship up for a play? cause if it was, i knew i'd put down a million bucks and still not lose anything. anw you lost didnt you?

i just had to say something. cldnt bare to leave the air awkward in silence as i step out of the car. so now, dont say i didnt. life have to move on or if its moving too fast, catch up with it. sometimes holding back could make you lose out in something good. sometimes. we learn something new everyday dont we?

yasmin, i hope you like the suprise! haha. and you're other unexpected suprises :p
love.

superb weekends!

2009-08-31T23:50:00.004+08:00

the power of handicap toilet (Y)

<3

the cycle repeats

2009-08-25T19:59:00.003+08:00

i quite notice that my mood is easily affected by the hormonal changes its going through. here i go again in my best agitated mood about a week after menses end. maybe i am tired. maybe all i need is a bar of chocolate to stimulate my endorphine level.

and organising my group meet ups have never been so annoying.
:S

2009-08-23T21:37:00.001+08:00

the new internet explorer 8 is the most irritating invention ever. i cant open any new link in a new browser or window. plus i cant even post pictures on my blog.

its annoying the shit out of me. urgh.

Ramadhan

2009-08-21T20:12:00.000+08:00

its so weird having Ramadhan and Hungry ghost clashing together. Theres muslim prayers beside my block and about less than 50m away, at the basketball court theres Auction Festival for the Hungry Ghost. wow. I wonder how our prayers would be when we seek peace and tranquility.

oh the side note, i went for a blood test today. she poked me THREE TIMES on my wrist and said, i think you need a senior nurse to do it. excuse me miss, you dont need to do it 3 times to know that you cant get any blood out of me. so in total, 4 pokes. nice..

Happy Ramadhan Everyone!
xoxo

na am

2009-08-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

so this week was pretty annoying. i got scolded for a few major mistakes that i forget already what mistakes they were.

while i was working one afternoon, someone came down the pharmacy looking for an arab translator at the ward. they had an international patient. my colleague excited over this matter decided to recommend me. boy oh boy i was nervous to meet the international patient, i started recalling whats pain, medicine in arabic.

when i arrived, the nurses ushered me to the room where the doctor is already in. little did i know the patient is suffering some psychotic conditions. the doctor asked me to translate, had she had any medical records before, any mental illness in the family history. my gawd. i was stunned. i didnt expect to translate such words, the last time i memorised all those words was when preparing for O levels, safe to say, it was ages ago.

i feel so upset cause i was off little help for the doctor. next, she asked me to speak to the patient. she was already staring at me weirdly. i asked her casually, no reply. just empty stares. i told the doctor, i think you need a better translator, i'll get someone else for you.

so i called my pharmacist shariffah. so funny, i was calling her,
'hey can i speak to shariffah?'
'may i know whose on the line?'
'oh this is shariffah'

we were too excited about this international patient that i missed out the location. she went to the wrong ward and never appeared at the correct ward. haha. i still wonder hows the patient doing or if i ever would bump into the patient and her family. they were from abu dhabi.

oh yeah, did i mention that my colleagues were excited that those arabs cld be interested in me. AHAH. funny!

a short one.

2009-08-16T22:51:00.005+08:00

i almost forget i have this space to update. other than having a blast during the national day break, life has been pretty mundane except for the weekends and impromtu plans (:

so ive watched 3 movies so far. the movie to watch, GI Joe, the movie thats worth a single dollar out of my 10 bucks, Money not enough. the movie to laugh your ass off, Hangover. Take your pick! Drag me to hell on DVD was not bad at all, 3 for scare factor.

I wonder hows Orphan and UP. Gotta catch it soon before the fasting month starts.

have a great week ahead everyone!

toodles!

eff.

2009-08-10T21:02:00.002+08:00

just everything or everyone that i come in contact with annoys me to the shit. i feel like crying at every blink. bye.

happy 44th SG

2009-08-07T21:55:00.001+08:00

i realise that i have a perfect red skirt and white top to dress up for national day. but.. i have no where to go and nothing patriotic to do.

doownnn...

2009-08-05T21:13:00.008+08:00

hi hello (:

i was online last sunday updating my blog and suddenly, im disconnected..
in case you've been looking for me, i know ive not been online much. internet at home is down, so im temporarily using this pay by the minute internet plan. i think its gonna go on for quite sometime cause the family is deciding to switch to signet now instead of starhub. good idea.. or not?

haiya, now ive been working everything also they are asking me to pay. pay light and water bill, now internet bill. pay pay pay everything. urgh.

my hp is always there waiting for messages :D

over my weekend last week,

Girlfriend and i to IKEA + Studiofrost flea (:

WIFE'S birthday dinner (:

First trip to ION orchard w Sarah (:

love!

=/

2009-07-31T23:02:00.003+08:00

i know its not worth the complain, but i had only half hour lunch for a full day work, yes i worked from 10 am to 6.30 pm and lunch from 2 to 2.30 pm only. can everyone just stop visiting the pharmacy for a moment? i feel so drained. mega fully planned weekend, goodluck to me. hopefully i dont get another flu and have a second scare to H1N1 like last week.

love, goodnight.

hijab lesson (:

2009-07-29T22:09:00.007+08:00

okay ladies, get ready with your shawls and 2 pins!

Here it goes, with FIVE simple steps!

Pin up at the centre, this is the most crucial part as it shapes your face. As mine is round, so i had the pointy part at the top.

make sure one side is short and the other side long as seen above.

pull the shorter length to the opposite side of your shoulder.

as for the longer one, pull it tightly (but comfortably) over at the other side of your head.

Wrap it around the head, over to the other side.

Tuck in the part of the excess cloth at the centre of the scarf as seen above.

bring over the short piece to the other side and pin it up.

for the other part of the scarf, neatly tuck according to your comfort.

here's how the back looks like.

Happy trying! (:

scare of my life

2009-07-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, sister tami decided to drop by.

i love you ma

2009-07-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

as usual, monday blues hit me. never did i anticipated leaving my uniform at home was part of it. i left home, put on my favourite music and alighted at the usual bustp. suddenly, my heart raced, UNIFORM! yeah, i headed to work uniformless. almost unbelievable!

ma, thanks for cabbing over to CGH with my uniform. life is nothing without you(:
love.

2009-07-19T12:48:00.005+08:00

i realise that its been more than a week since ive updated this space. im having crazy work shifts for 2 weeks cause one of my colleague is on hospital work leave. plus, i did overtime just to make up the saturday that i planned to go off early from work.

(watch out a whole chunk of complains)
apparently the high tea was not that exciting afterall. it stated on the tix, to be seated by 1.30. knowing that my work ends at 1, i had to take time off. which i got home, rushed my make up and got ready. by 12.30 i was out by the road, under the scotching sun waiting for a blardy cab. only at 1pm that i finally got into one. by the time my dress and make up were soaking wet. turthfully, i didnt even feel like going anymore. the taxi driver was so chatty that i forgot about my anger totally. oh yeah, did i mention that the event only started at 3pm? which i wld have made it if i didnt got off from work early, do overtime during weekdays. wth. the whole event was slow, very slow. very long segments, even the belly dancing. i cant believe i cld get bored watching at the gorgeous russian lady dancing away.

it didnt help when at night while i was out with sasha, i got a freaky good scolding from my sister. yes it was freaky. she called asking how was the event, when i told her, lulu showcasing her desgins, she said i was crazy for paying to watch someone's desgins. she thought i didnt know value of money. her designs were breathtaking esp for the wedding gowns! in case you didnt know, i'd pay any price for me to have some fun which i had with my girls last night (:

oh well. that's life anw.
i've already stopped enrolling in guitar which i think im gonna miss. i'm gonna enroll into a new class now, belly dancing ftw!

love.

real enough?

2009-07-10T20:57:00.004+08:00

the main reason i went to tampines mall after work was to look at hair accessories for my arabian high tea next saturday. i ended up in Times where the book that i wanted was on 20% off :D and added new collection to my shawls. look at how easy i forget my main agenda. i've aged, alot.

one of my senior pharmacist at work gave me a hug cause she love how i smile at her everytime she's in her naggy mood. she said, 'shariffah you're very good, very happy!' and went on telling other colleagues. she didnt know i cried myself to sleep last night.

oh yeah, workplace bbq 2mr night, hope its fun (:
love.

its all sore man!

2009-07-09T21:46:00.003+08:00

somtimes i wonder with all this anger i have at the end of the day is cause that im tired or just because everything is going haywire. everyone be kind for a moment please, PMS alert.

maybe.

curl your way through

2009-07-05T23:15:00.003+08:00

she just have the best curls isnt it? Su, meet my new crush (:

i just feel that her cd is one of the best buys this season, including jeniffer hudson's and jason mraz's and that book i've been wanting to get. sweet, i just noticed a new 'must have list' building up just when im proclaiming to yasmin and khai that i dont have anything on my list. haha

love!

too much fun

2009-06-29T00:17:00.002+08:00

my days are going haywire.

good morning, its monday already.

ka-ching

2009-06-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

so finally pay day came again. this time i successfully opened a new savings account which they'd automatically deduct a specific amount from my account every month. so i was counting on how much money left for me to spend.. it seems like none ): after paying my debts, guitar classes and driving.

it feels like everything is falling into place now, but i know i dont want to be stuck in this phase for long. i still wonder what am i gonna do in 5 years time or even 10. will it still be striving for a degree or migrating over to a new country.

all i know is that, i want change.
love.

1940

2009-06-24T22:42:00.001+08:00

today i felt the exact opposite of yesterday's post. sigh. doing medisave is really taking a toll on me

can i not do it anymore?
pretty please? ):

i need a life plan

2009-06-23T21:15:00.001+08:00

time passes really fast at work, but very slow at home. i shldnt complain right since i get to rest more? packing over 2000+ prescriptions is nauseating me.

love.

images

2009-06-21T23:11:00.005+08:00

photos from my new camera (:

Ibtisam's Henna Night

Air Supply Concert

Ibtisam's Wedding

Arab St shopping with Mama

love.

spanish

2009-06-16T23:45:00.006+08:00

im mega excited to start reading the cosmopolitan magazine my bro & sister in law bought for me from her honeymoon trip in Madrid, Spain. it comes with a miniature bvlgari perfume and a cutesy bag. guess what, the magz is in spanish! now im wondering what's my sister gona get me when she comes back from NZ in 10 days time (:

double excitement!
im so gonna click and snap with my new toy!

xoxo,
peachy!

oh yeah did i mention that work has been a bitch?

ouch

2009-06-14T16:06:00.004+08:00

first i am dissapointed in myself for not being able to make it for the IT show.

i had the worst fall in my life on friday that i decided to get myself checked at the A&E deparment at CGH. thank god x ray shows no fractures. recupperation was good when i had all my gfs around me playing all kind of card games together over the weekend.

now im afraid of taking any staircase not only cause it hurts everytime i take a step but because the nightmare plays on repeat constantly.

):

2009-06-03T21:49:00.001+08:00

PCD HERE I COME!

(front row baby)

//editted: one word, awesome!

spree is the way to go!

2009-05-31T16:01:00.002+08:00

hmm.. let me see, so i had a rocky start to my week but everythings awesome now cause i had a good weekend :D nothing feels better than a shopping spree right yasmin? haha, i guess any other girl would agree too, but i had the best company, shopping buddy, girlfriend. we can never make it to our financial list cause we'll freak out at our buys, just a list of wants is good enough. we'll sort out just which to buy first. hahaa. now i dont have to feel guilty at every buy cause finally, im spending money i have and more to save!

let me see, i had 1.5 X of pay, so i spent on:

1. la senza bras
2. 2 new tops
3. 2 new bags (fringe and chanel inspired)
4. forever 21 shades
5. a pair of sandals and shoes from crocs sale

plus, a share of treating my family and friends :D

i couldnt be more ever satisfied w my list, cant wait to put everthing new to use, no im not the type who save the best for lasts on my purchases. haha.
love.

bukan cinta biasa

2009-05-29T22:35:00.003+08:00

so last night was my treat to karaoke. they almost got chocked hearing it. haha, like finally i can say that word, 'its on me'. it has been a fortnightly outing for us sisters. a good way to bond cause we hardly see each other nowadays.

it's funny how we'd fight over which parts of the songs to sing and we can even not talk to each other for a few songs and everything's normal when the favourite hits are back on the playlist. i actually discovered i can hit falsetto notes and siti nur halizah's songs are (Y) for me.

at work, im given new responsibilities as time goes by. today, i was given to take care of a gondola of antibiotics and GIT drugs. hello to restocking, ordering of drugs, cashering, medisave calculations and typing of labels.

love.

hormones kicking up!

2009-05-26T23:27:00.004+08:00

i overheard the pharmacists talking among each other,
'dont you know now monday blues drags on till tuesday?'

hell yeah when you experienced this;

stupid worst day that made me cry at work
at home, my sister kicks up a big fuss that i mocked her and vowed to not help her anymore
a call from a good friend came in and i snapped asking to stop calling me already.

thank god, dad fixed my guitar alrd.
all i really want is aircon and some candles to relax.
goodnight.

p/s: jade and su, i just had to use the candles we bought from muji for our candles picnic the other day.

hey there delilah

2009-05-25T21:39:00.004+08:00

hello.

today at work i signed for a one year study + work course to be pharmacy technician, fully sponsored by CGH. ofcourse, as expected, there's gonna be 1 year bond after completion of studies. so there you go, im with CGH for two years, im taking it like i have NS, just that i have a wayy better salary plus, i can do my own physical activity at my own pace (: haha.

im actually pretty excited to study again!

love,
peachy

is this feeling for real?

2009-05-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

i hurt my last finger at work, a deep cut and its gonna hurt for guitar. i think the instructor knows that i dont practice. heh. i know the chords sir, but i dont have (make) time to practice. and great, i snapped the same guitar string twice now.

hopefully, i'll play the song alright.
oh yeah, just sent my bro to spain for his 2nd honeymoon. so exciting!

love.

hands down baby!

2009-05-20T23:27:00.007+08:00

just when you thought the mind wants to settle on repeat mode, the next minute, it wants it on shuffle. shuffle always perk my journeys. i like how it suprises me with the songs, sometimes i never knew i had it on my zen. sometimes, just understand how my mood feels.

(:

you all prolly saw it on fb, but i think this is damn funny!
Shanie just took the "What mak cik are you ?" quiz and the result is You are A Cute Mak Cik !.

you have a bubbly personality, not like normal mak cik.. You are a regular woman with her rights to do whatever she wants. not to "KECOH"

love!

(Y)

2009-05-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

almost in the midst of quitting guitar, but he keeps teaching songs i like. i have to say its really difficult to strum and sing at the same time. i wonder how mats bawah block do it..

love.

uniqlo ikea.

2009-05-17T11:26:00.008+08:00

i didnt know they did cooking in ikea. lol

bumper car! 6 bucks, a total rip off!

his hair was so short that i didnt understand wats there to cut.

thanks weihow for coming down to tamp just because i was injured. haha you made me walk like as though i wasnt injured. oh wait, or was it just because you wanted to go to uniqlo. hmm better do some redemption ah. sucker! naz, your brother is so much like you that im sure he'd turn out into the next naz.

that wraps up last week's sunday night! tonnes of fun and it was all in tampines(:

tampines the place to live in (;

2009-05-15T21:26:00.002+08:00

today i was out w husi for dinner and we were talking abt facebook quizes. haha this is hillarious! but i like!

Shanie took the Hey Minah, what kind of Mat should you be dating? quiz and the result is Abang Motor Besar

You are very sek and you will look good on a GSXR/R1/CBR1000. You will have no problems fitting into a 1 seater with your Mat, and you definitely enjoy watching heads turn as you and fellow Minah friends roll in to Simpang Bedok with your Mats on the above mentioned bikes on a Saturday night. You are quite adventurous, daring and don't get sleepy easily, which is why you will enjoy riding around with your Mat on dates out. Don't forget to invest in a nice helmet! [minahspeak.livejournal.com]

haha i am very sek, i know!
abang motor come come! hahaha
love!

im slipping away

2009-05-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

Please help me get over these difficult times i am having right now.
I find myself lying to people close to me, and I don’t want to do it, please give me the courage to just tell the truth! Also people help me to get through this dark time and help ward of the monsters in my head telling me to end my happiness :(

please bring shanie peachy back.

love.

oh crap

2009-05-11T22:23:00.003+08:00

ive always been taught not to use the word unhappy in my younger days cause it just shows how limited my vocabulary is. but sometimes, it really does explain an emotion. unhappy is the exact word that describes how im feeling now. if you ask me is it sad? or depressed? im neither here nor there. just, unhappy.

now, give me some love wont you?
yes, im picking with my words.
bye.

nothing else i can say.

2009-05-10T22:28:00.003+08:00

it annoys me that im starting to like lady gaga's songs. it started w just dance, then poker face now eh eh. she just looks so ew to me. i remember hating her name the first time i saw at perez, like wtf, wat kind of name is that.

aiyah. work again.
good luck for your first day suuu!
okay bye. love.

thanks for everthing

2009-05-10T10:13:00.001+08:00

its stupid that i already made the decision and now crying hoping i wont have to cnue w it. im really gonna miss everything.

TGIF

2009-05-07T22:09:00.006+08:00

time passes by real fast at work. i was suprised quite a number asked how was i feeling after the mc.

yay working creatures, its friday already!

Facebook Notice:
Shanie completed the quiz "Who is your "perfect match"?" with the result Calm & Balanced.

Your perfect match is someone who is encouraging, friendly and genuine.
This type of person is a peacemaker and while they are not super ambitious, they want to make sure that the people around them are well taken care of and appreciated.
They are happy to let you take the leadership role in the relationship and are very interested in how you are feeling at all times.
They are very in tune with their emotions, seek balance in their life and feel happiest when things around them are calm.
They lead with their heart, rather than their head so your ability to be well-grounded and level-headed will make you the perfect team.
This person will always accept you for who you are, never demanding more and will love you passionately and fully.
The top traits they are looking for in a mate are: sensitivity, ambition (they realize that it is important and admire you for it) and stability.
You will never need to wonder if they love you as the gifts, cards and phone calls just to "see how you are feeling today" will come pouring in..

fit the bill or not, tag me ur email if interested. in need of a social escort. okay thank you!

love.

makan makan!

2009-05-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

we wanted to go for indon food, but jade turned up an indian guy (haha), i mean food; prata, curry and mee hoon goreng instead. i brought fruits! yay! bottle tree park picnic was a success! (Y)(L).

swollen heart

2009-05-05T21:20:00.003+08:00

woke up monday morning, my ankle hurts soo much. went through the day at work, it got worst. by the time guitar ended, i could barely walk.

bandage. heat rub.

next morning, went to work w/o a bandage cause im pretty scared to against the dress code, to be wearing slippers. my ankle got worst. limping throughout the whole day at work. my colleague was so nice to help to put on bandage for me :D

on MC for wednesday. i hope it doesnt affect my 3 months probation but i really cant walk :s

synflex.
fomatidine.
heat rub on.

on another note:

sasha says:
*i wanna have picnic too
*anyway babe
*ill talk to you tmr okay
*jingting needs to sleep already
*and i dont wanna disturb with all the typing
*please let me know what happened to you okay
*even though im not physically around and all
*but i wanna know what happened to you!
*i hope you're feeling better
*we shall be each other's pillar of strength!
*:D
*love you!
*hope your leg is feeling better! :D
*okay
*just that
*when you need someone to talk to, though im like many kms far, but im only a call away :)

hanna hanna. im touched la sasha ANG MOH tan. disgusting.
love.

http://www.dear-god.net/hope/

2009-05-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

I feel like I’ve been falling apart slowly for a few months, but it’s only beginning to show.

Everyone thinks I have it together, but I don’t… I’ve always been the one that does good in everything, and enjoys school, life and everything else. Now I have to delay life because all of my previous issues and emotions have caught up with me, but I still haven’t told anyone. And I’m scared to. It’s like all this time I’ve been painting myself into a corner, and it gets harder and harder as time passes to say anything.

I feel so lost, and I wish I could just pack up and travel to find myself, but no one would understand. And I don’t want to feel like I’m throwing away all the opportunities thats waiting for me.

I’ve started doubting myself as a person… I want to be the person I was before, but I don’t think I can get through this. How do I do it?

love.